PEBBLES!

Yo yo yo mini hoes..

Yeah. Well.. i think my bf is trying to drug me coz he brought me back some 'sweets' shaped like pebbles and like they made me go mental.. could just of been sugar high but i felt drunk lol!
Said some stupid things to people aswell lol.

Got 2 parties this weekend! wooo
Hopefully i wont do anything too stupidiful. lol ive ran around outside freezing with no top , cheated, sang really bad kareoke and done really bad dancemat and fallen down the stairs, plus the obvious throwing up and passing out.. lol im a light weight so sue me.

My computer is being so gay! trying to close things down to stop it.. dont know whyyyyy.. hold on.

Ok i deleted cookies and shizzle and its faster now =)

Well.. today was alright.. i realised actually how weak i am when it comes to certain things.. mainly arms and stomachs.. of the male tanned variety. Oh god lol. I need to be able to control myself at these parties as the person in question will be at one of them! lol. Its so funny i act like a complete shlag, but people have learnt to turn me down now coz i just out for some and bf gets pissed off. Next time i do it its going to be dumpage 'r' me. lol. Nearly broke up the other day.. conversations starting with 'do you think we ever be happy?' 'no' are never going to be good..
But it did end alright and we are still together.. i think im losing interest, yet when we nearly break up i always nearly end up crying! And i dont know why lol.

Did about defence strategies today in psychology, the narcissistic, the perfectionist, the arrogant- vindictive and resigned people. Im more resigned with the fear of failing and if i dont try i cant fail or be disappointed, believe in freedom, peace and self sufficiency. My bf is the narcissistic.. meaning he loves himself, has no doubt in his own greatness and find it hard to empathize and love others. LOL. And finally my troublesome friend is a arrogant-vindictive she knows shes good and is over confident in that and makes others feel bad by it, will not be influenced by softer feelings and has no grasp of morality.. therefore relationships are hard and what may been seen as obviously wrong by some people would not even be given a second thought by her. This is due to apparent psychological injuries recieved in childhood.. but she hasnt been bullied or anything, that i know of, known her since age 9. lol i was bullied alot but im alrightish lol. Although im insecure, attention seeking and paranoid. lol.

As i said in the last blog, basically i meant that to stop their heads getting big the media is there to bring them back to reality, doesnt really work but hey. Wish someone would write an article on some of the people i know to make them have a reality check and grow up a bit lol.

Im immature sometimes.. but not in an unrealistic way, i swear some people i know have no grasp of reality atall! i have an extreme imagination but i can still tell reality from fantasy.

Arhgd im gabbling again.. lol

PEBBLES.

LOL i havent had any but im really happy, i think its 'cause the sun is back! I love ittttt..
lol

=)

OMG italy soon.
Ive had no sex for 4 weeks.. 4 weeks.. 4... weeks.

sorry. yeah.

URMDFHSAa..

Byee xx