Im finally/ actually happy!!!!
Its amazinggggg..
I also have my own wireless keyboard now.. so no more hard spaces and stuffs.
18 in 3 weeks! Having a party and inviting all my friendlys.. its got a masquerade theme and is hopefully going to be good. Theres a guy who i like.. still not over ex as theres been some sexness and kissyness.. at various parties/my house party. But ill learn eventually. =)
I need like a million pounds to pay for a summer social ticket, a leavers hoodie with my name on it, twins presents, mums present, a mask for my bday, a top for my bday.. and clothes in general! lol.. ohhhh dear. I currently have £20 =(
Scrubs is on.. got to dashhh
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Showing posts with label happy. Show all posts
Showing posts with label happy. Show all posts
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
Karma..
Happy..Happy? Happy!
I wasnt earlier.. but i am now..! =)
I fell out with someone..ish.. and id ignored a text from someone else to lend something, then later i decided to text back and go find what they wanted..And things got better =)
Someone invited me out
Someone gave me compliments and was uber nice
Someone was tres nice
Someone was interested
=)
Andddd i have orange squash!
ME thinks that karma exists
Well..
I am a believer in god also.. so could be that too.
When i say im a believer in god.. i guess its a vaguely Christian view, im sceptical about Jesus but i believe theres something. Its pretty mind blowing thinking something/someone created everything and is out there watching, bigger than the universe? in the universe? outside? everywhere?
Where does the universe end? i personally see it being in a box with more space on the outside. I cant comprehend anything else. So its all good.
When i get a new keyboard i shall write longer blogs, however atm... im finding the spacing difficult.
Xx..
I wasnt earlier.. but i am now..! =)
I fell out with someone..ish.. and id ignored a text from someone else to lend something, then later i decided to text back and go find what they wanted..And things got better =)
Someone invited me out
Someone gave me compliments and was uber nice
Someone was tres nice
Someone was interested
=)
Andddd i have orange squash!
ME thinks that karma exists
Well..
I am a believer in god also.. so could be that too.
When i say im a believer in god.. i guess its a vaguely Christian view, im sceptical about Jesus but i believe theres something. Its pretty mind blowing thinking something/someone created everything and is out there watching, bigger than the universe? in the universe? outside? everywhere?
Where does the universe end? i personally see it being in a box with more space on the outside. I cant comprehend anything else. So its all good.
When i get a new keyboard i shall write longer blogs, however atm... im finding the spacing difficult.
Xx..
Sunday, March 9, 2008
FLUCVKCDFGH
Since when has one persons problem been only theirs?
What happened to friends that care?
What happened to friends that are there for you?!
I swear everyone is so far up their own asses they dont notice when someone is unhappy.
I get called names nonstop.. and people are always like oh she will be fine, she always laughs it off.
Ever heard of a front? most of the time i dont laugh it off, most of the time i sit thinking about whats been said, thinking it over and over.
What can i do to make myself better?
What can i do so people accept me?
What can i do to not get singled out.
When someone has a problem, anyone, regardless of if i know them or not. I will try and help, try and make them feel better, try and find a solution, be there for reassurance.. but it seems theres very few people like that.
Recently ive been pretty caught up in stuff and havent exactly found the time for certain friends.. and ARGH i hate it. Its so retarded.
I just want to be happy! Is that really too much to ask? Really?
Xx
What happened to friends that care?
What happened to friends that are there for you?!
I swear everyone is so far up their own asses they dont notice when someone is unhappy.
I get called names nonstop.. and people are always like oh she will be fine, she always laughs it off.
Ever heard of a front? most of the time i dont laugh it off, most of the time i sit thinking about whats been said, thinking it over and over.
What can i do to make myself better?
What can i do so people accept me?
What can i do to not get singled out.
When someone has a problem, anyone, regardless of if i know them or not. I will try and help, try and make them feel better, try and find a solution, be there for reassurance.. but it seems theres very few people like that.
Recently ive been pretty caught up in stuff and havent exactly found the time for certain friends.. and ARGH i hate it. Its so retarded.
I just want to be happy! Is that really too much to ask? Really?
Xx
Friday, January 18, 2008
Happy Pills? Anyone?
GRARGGHGHHGHG...
Bf is sooo gna break up with me soon. Again.
I dont want to, but then i do. If we break up i wanna be the one doing the breaking up. Not him. Again.
The only way i keep him interested is by acting like im not. How fucked up.
He likes the chase.. like me. Im always chasing him.. Always.
Hes emotionally detached from everything.. its retarded.
Selfish and narcesistic. ARGH.
Im not a great gf myself, not that most people know, him certainly not.. the things i say to people lol.
If he was doing the same i'd be so annoyed.
Anyway.
One exam left.. took double dose of calming pills today they worked better.. but i was still stressed. Maybe 6 will work lol.
Spent the night in tonight.. coz i was asleep when everyone went out. Been a shit night.. all ive thought about is him, how hes out and didnt want to see me, all the shit hes said to me.. listening to songs about how men like him are cunts. Lol. If you met him you might think he was nice.. bit camp but nice. No hes not gay. But other people will say it too.. hes in stuff for himself if he dont want to do something. He wont. No comprimise. Hes lucky hes got a gf that lets him walk all over her.. if he started treatin some other girl like this she wud tell him to piss off. But he never used to be this bad. My 'friends' changed him. They all roll with the crowd and i tend to have my own opinion and do what i want. But hes weak i guess.
If anyone is reading this.. sorry for rambling about shiz.. lol. I hope its interesting. Bet its not though lol. It will be more interesting when i get happy. If, i get happy.
Oh and theyre doing chlaymedia tests on upper sixth form. How actualy retarded. I have a lesson clash with careers so i hope i dont have to do one. I dont have it, i know i dont. Its just retarded!
..Xx
Bf is sooo gna break up with me soon. Again.
I dont want to, but then i do. If we break up i wanna be the one doing the breaking up. Not him. Again.
The only way i keep him interested is by acting like im not. How fucked up.
He likes the chase.. like me. Im always chasing him.. Always.
Hes emotionally detached from everything.. its retarded.
Selfish and narcesistic. ARGH.
Im not a great gf myself, not that most people know, him certainly not.. the things i say to people lol.
If he was doing the same i'd be so annoyed.
Anyway.
One exam left.. took double dose of calming pills today they worked better.. but i was still stressed. Maybe 6 will work lol.
Spent the night in tonight.. coz i was asleep when everyone went out. Been a shit night.. all ive thought about is him, how hes out and didnt want to see me, all the shit hes said to me.. listening to songs about how men like him are cunts. Lol. If you met him you might think he was nice.. bit camp but nice. No hes not gay. But other people will say it too.. hes in stuff for himself if he dont want to do something. He wont. No comprimise. Hes lucky hes got a gf that lets him walk all over her.. if he started treatin some other girl like this she wud tell him to piss off. But he never used to be this bad. My 'friends' changed him. They all roll with the crowd and i tend to have my own opinion and do what i want. But hes weak i guess.
If anyone is reading this.. sorry for rambling about shiz.. lol. I hope its interesting. Bet its not though lol. It will be more interesting when i get happy. If, i get happy.
Oh and theyre doing chlaymedia tests on upper sixth form. How actualy retarded. I have a lesson clash with careers so i hope i dont have to do one. I dont have it, i know i dont. Its just retarded!
..Xx
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