Pointless.

Everythings turning me bitter.. what am i meant to do...

If the things in life are there to round your character, make you a better person, it doesnt work.

I go through sad, angry, depressed and in denial over and over.
Thinking strategies and plans and chances and hoping. Saying i dont need him, i dont want him.

But i do. So much.
I hide the majority of my feelings infront of everyone else.. noone knows just how upset i actually am.

The crying, the numbness, the shouting, meaninglessness, hopelessness, pointlessness.

I hate it. I hate me. I hate love. I love him.

x..