Thingssss Can Only Gettt Worssserrrr...

http://majorly.deviantart.com/art/One-Day-You-Will-See-79475484

Basically describes how im feeling right now. Well as i wrote it.

Not really a poem, but i didnt know how to classify it..

Xx..

I'll Knock You Out BIATCH!

Todays been a weird day..
I told someone to fuck off because i got so angry.. i stormed out because i felt i was going to punch someone.. i walked down to town because i needed to cry. I sat on a bench and watched the people walk past me and watched how they looked at me or how they didnt.. Its so strange, i hoped that one of them might stop and give me some miracle advice or make me happy.
But noone stopped. Noone spoke. Noone really gave me a look of compassion.
I got a look of disgust from an old woman with a long skirt and pearly white hair.. probably the music i was listening to, heavy rock on full blast on my ipod. Its a disgrace that i can listen to the music i want.. obviously means im a drug abusing alcoholic.
Anyway.. I have been ditched yet again by my 'best' friend.. she says oooh your my best friend and says she loves me. But... doesnt listen to me, leaves me for other people and gangs up on me. Im the one person that will stand up to her as noone else can be bothered with the hassle. If you get on my wrong side you'll know it, not many people argue with me either. Was quite funny her bf said that people should be scared of me , as if they got on my wrong side id probably knock em out lol. Bless.
Got a pretty high score on wii boxing.. so you never know!
I also had muscle pain for 3 days after...lol

I feel lonely. But not because i am, because im not like the rest of my friends.. if your reading this and your think arhfhg shes one of them who thinks shes different and unique and all that emo shizzle. Im not, i just think in a different way to them and its making me tres unhappy.. its like im either really stupid, or really smart. Most people say im stupid. Figures.
Then ill ask the people i know and theyll say that im smart and complicated. Id like to be simple, but smart isnt all that bad i guess!

You know what i wish this blog had a proper hit counter and stuff.. coz its actually a penis.

Xx

Lonely Times..Call For Lonely Music..

I missed wednesday.. and today is still my thursday.. although it technically isnt.
Bf came over tonight.. and i cried when he left for no apparent reason.. and nearly did at various points during the evening.. lol..
Its hard only enjoying a few things.. very few. and the main one being scrutinised by everyone who knows me..

I was the little shy girl.. who walked round the guttering of the playground by herself..

Now.. im something better or worse..

I havent quite decided yet..

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